Ever had the person with the toxic personality in your office? The one where everything is negative, and they spin a small event into something mean and sorted. Where their face crunches up while they spew forth their petulance. Yeah, well that’s me.
Generally speaking, I am a pretty nice person, sort of self-involved, but not to the point of failing to recognize the presence of others. Yet give me a subject with a limited amount of information available that I can take off on and look out, bombs away. It happens without me even knowing. I need some sort of audible or perhaps painful signal, to tell me that I am entering the red zone.
To top it off, most of the subjects have nothing to do with me directly.
While I don’t want to become Miss Mary Sunshine, pretending like everything is fine with me.
- You want to cut our pay by 2/3 and force us to clean the jam out of your toes. Sounds great. Sign me up. I am a team player.
- You just drove my only vehicle into the canal on a whim. No problem, I love public transit.
I do need to see that not everything is a conspiratorial plot to piss me off or screw me over. The powers that be, are not sitting in their offices, or behind the wheel of their cars figuring out new ways to make my life miserable. That criticism may be constructive and be given with my best interests at heart.
I don’t need to make acerbic remarks every time the big D or one of the lemmings make a comment.
I do need to stay out of the business of others. If they feel screwed over, I don’t need to encourage them. But a angry mob is alway more fun than a single grumbler.
Frak it. It all sucks anyway may as well go out in a toxic sludge of glory.
